Life has been too busy lately - so busy that it's been a little lacking on the life part.  There hasn't been much time for anything but school.

And reading blogs.  It's the one mini-break that I'll let myself have when I'm chained to my computer, trying to write.  (Unless I've disabled my internet, but that's another story.)  That and making tea, but that doesn't count. 

Tonight I read a gem. 


It's from the FAQ section of this and was quoted by a friend-of-a-friend here, which I only saw because I linked on to her page from Ashley's blog.  I only share the cyber-chain because it's so random and it brought me to something so randomly beautiful. 

I don't think I need to explain the why and how this resonates with me.  :o)  I love art for art's sake.  And spontaneity. 


And funny pants.

I find it hard to believe that most people don't talk to themselves when other aren't around.  Is this seriously the case?   Even people who live alone?



Um, yes, to answer your question: It's been a while.  I haven't seen anyone in person since church Sunday morning.   . . . maybe it's a good thing I have a lesson tomorrow morning?

I think it's safe to venture that I wasn't so ok about a month ago... but right now I am.

A lot of things are changing. My thesis topic is changing completely, but surprisingly NOT my advisor. My church is changing... but it looks like I can keep my lecture recital topic after all. Right now the transition is starting to get tiring, but I know it was needed to get to this place of being ok.

All of a sudden I feel as though some of it is possible...
I'm making the time to spend some time with God in His Word...
And now and then I even make the effort to 'take a Sabbath' and to pretend that I don't have any work for a whole day. Today may not have been the best day to do so, but it took one today, and it feels so good. It's probably the first one that I've had this year where I didn't avoid work because I was crashing completely as a result of the week(s) preceding it.

I went to church, watched some Friends, played piano, baked muffins, read my Bible, journaled, wrote some postcards and letters, and now I'm even getting to write an LJ, brief though it may be. I also practised my horn, but I'm inclined to say that it didn't count as work today as I was practising while enjoying a glass of red wine. (The sweeter stuff, of course, which I'm sure was oh-so-much-nicer for my horn.) The practise felt good, and I dare say went well. Oh yes, and through it all, which ever I wasn't making music myself, I listened to the same song on loop. The same five minute song. On loop. I've never been able to fully explain my occasional urge to do this until today - it's my way of stopping time. If I'm still listening to the same song, not that much time must have passed. And so, an entire Sunday afternoon and evening has been reduced to a mere five minutes.

I found this fascinating site that creates word clouds of any chunk of text you feed it. The more times each word shows up, the bigger it appears. Out of curiosity, I ran my LJ page (containing the most five most recent posts) through it and was rewarded with this aesthetically pleasing and endlessly intriguing result.




I find it interesting that the words Grandpa & God and Grandpa's and Jesus are approximately the same size. It doesn't surprise me that remember is a large as it, but the relative enormity of know is astounding considering how little it feels that I know as of late.

The next project that I forsee giving this site is that of song lyrics. Can't you see it now?